AHHH! WE’RE HAVING A BABY!! It has been 16 weeks sinking in this baby news, and it still feels surreal! Pregnancy is one of the most beautiful, divine journeys and I feel beyond blessed to be carrying this sweet little baby God chose for us. This is literally my dream come true to become a mom, and I am beyond excited for this next season of life. I have a feeling it is going to be the best one yet!
How We Found Out About Our Pregnancy
It was 6 AM on Sunday, Memorial Day. I woke up, and had this immediate thought, “I think I’m pregnant.” For the past two weeks, something in my body just felt different. I was more tired than usual and I felt and looked so bloated. 5 days prior, I had taken a test and it came back negative. Chalk it up to wishful thinking or gut instinct, I knew I needed to take another test. So I sprang out of bed and immediately reached into my cabinet…
Waiting those three minutes for the results felt like the longest three minutes of my life. I was doing some major expectation control in my head thinking, “I’m probably not, I’m probably just late…” as I stared impatiently at the stick on the floor. Then, suddenly, I blinked, and our lives would change forever.
Two faint red lines appeared.
OK let that sink in.
I shouted from the bathroom, “Oh my God, I’m PREGNANT!!!!!!!”
And for a single moment, the world stopped.
My initial reaction was surprised! Freaking excited!! Blessed. Freaking excited!! A little stunned. I jumped back into bed squealing about the news to Will who was still half asleep. We were both so incredibly happy that this was happening. Simply put, it was the best news ever.
The days and weeks that followed, I did everything in my power to rest, eat well, drink plenty of fluids, and minimize all of my stress, in order for this little life to thrive. I meditated and visualized our baby growing inside of me. I primed. I prayed…I filled my whole body with all of the love and light I possibly could in order for it to grow. There was nothing I already wouldn’t do for our little baby.
Witnessing the capacity in which our female bodies are miraculously programmed to create life in the most divine, natural sense, is simply profound and life changing. I’m confused as to why men have been the more “powerful” gender throughout history, because I don’t see them growing life! But I digress…
At 6 weeks, we saw it’s tiny little heart flicker and heard it beat at 124 BPM. It was the most beautiful sound I had ever heard. At 8 weeks, we saw our baby on the ultrasound again, looking like a little marshmallow, and we already loved it so much. By our 10 week ultrasound, things were definitely growing and our baby looked more like a little human! Seeing your baby inside of you, moving around, waving it’s arms, stretching…just doing it’s thing, is the most surreal, amazing life moment, thus far. You’re like, “Wait!? You’re inside me, growing, heart beating, being all perfect, and cozy, and I’m here going about our days just waiting to get a glimpse of you?!”
Baby, you are already blowing my mind and expanding my heart.
We Made It…Literally and Figuratively
We are officially in the second trimester now, and we’re coasting. The first trimester was really rough, and I didn’t feel like myself, like, at all. I had the baby blues and basically cocooned myself for 12 straight weeks. But once I hit week 14, I felt a second wind. My energy came back, the nausea subsided, and I’ve been happily soaking in every moment of this pregnancy.
Every day, I notice my growing belly, check my pregnancy apps, and dream about who this baby will be and what our lives will look like once it’s in our arms. I imagine meeting him or her for the first time, our home, our dogs being it’s big brother and big sister, and this new life bringing so much joy to us and our families. It is such a miracle!
The journey has just begun. We can’t wait to meet you come February baby!!!